Enmity's Journal

New Journal

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 06:35:39 GMT

For those of you who care, I got a new journal over at kyregan.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 07:42:31 GMT

Another update...

Old, Gay, Creepy, Internet Men scare me.... I am gonna go and like... gouge out my eyes, lock my windows and doors, and like... hide a knife under my pillow now... thanks.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 07:38:09 GMT

I have bolded the parts that are important....

:'(.
yeah life fucking sucks.
im going to kill my self.

i love you so much dominic nark.
you will always be with me.
you were my big brother, who i looked up to.
you were always there for me.
you had so much going for your self.
i love you with all of my heart.

el-im sorry. life is to short, fuck what we said i love u. fights are over rated.
chris-i miss u more then ne thing. i love u. call me.
jaz- im happy for you. call me sometime. i miss u to.

Anyone see something wrong with this? ;)

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 08:26:59 GMT

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 06:06:45 GMT

The protest continues. (See Here to see the begining of it.)

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 07:30:29 GMT

While helping my mom sort out records I found a Rainbow Brite one... I am totally gonna steal it from her when I move cuz I'm hardcore like that. (I know... Rainbow Brite.... But I loved her as a kid... *sings the theme*)

And that just proves how old I am getting... So many people these days go "Huh?" when you say record/vinyl and I distinctly remember my first response to a CD player when I was 6 "How does a record fit in that?" *weeps* I am getting oooold!

And! I thought this one up today while reflecting upon a conversation involving mike, sel and I.

We were talking about how we're old and Sel was like "Sure make me feel older than I already am." and mike was like "That's in Gay years though" So:

In the garden of life your fruits expire long before your vegetables.

and for me:

Life is a garden, you have your fruits, your vegetables and I guess I'm what you'd call a tomato. <3

Muchos love ya'll

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 20:43:44 GMT

01. Buy everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swim with wild dolphins
03. Climb a mountain (Not the whole way of course. :-p)
04. Take a Ferrari for a test drive
05. See the Pyramids at night
06. Hold a tarantula
07. Take a candlelit bath with someone
08. Say 'I love you' and mean it
09. Hug a tree
10. Do a striptease
11. Do a bungee or parachute jump
12. Visit Paris
13. Watch a lightning storm at sea
14. Clean behind the fridge
15. Stay up all night long, and watch the sun rise.
16. Ask a question you've always been too embarrassed to ask.
17. See the Northern Lights
18. Go to a huge sports game - football, rugby, baseball, American football, etc
19. Create your own masterpiece (It was a masterpiece in my eyes)
20. Grow and eat your own vegetables
21. Touch an iceberg
22. Have an office relationship
23. Sleep under the stars
24. Compromise
25. Change a baby's nappy/diaper
26. Take a trip in a hot air balloon
27. Watch a meteor shower
28. Get drunk on champagne.
29. Take a luxury holiday
30. Give more than you can afford to charity
31. Look up at the night sky through a telescope
32. Have an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
33. Have a food fight
34. Bet on a winning horse
35. Take a sick day when you're not ill
36. Get a pet
37. Ask a stranger out.
38. Have a snowball fight
39. Photocopy your bottom on the office photocopier
40. Scream as loudly as you possibly can
41. Hold a lamb
42. Enact a favorite fantasy
43. Take a midnight skinny dip
44. Hear the words 'I love you'
45. Fly on Concorde
46. Take an ice cold bath
47. Have a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
48. See a total eclipse
49. Rode a roller coaster
50. Hit a home run
51. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
52. Dance like a fool and not care who's looking
53. Adopt an accent for an entire day
54. Visit the birthplace of you ancestors
55. Have a grand romance with costumes and everything
56. Made up a screenname to stalk someone (Joke stalking to scare someone for fun count?)
57. Gone shopping for no reason.
58. Actually feel happy about your life, even for just a moment.
59. Just be held
60. Have an adventure where nothing goes as planned.
61. Kissed someone you truly wanted to kiss.
62. Went clubbing and thought to yourself "I could out-dance them if I wanted to"
63. Called your relatives by their relationship
64. Have two hard drives for your computer
65. Cuddled
66. Visited all 50 states
67. Love your job
68. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
69. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
70. Have amazing friends
71. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country.
72. Swim during a formal
73. Stolen a sign
74. Backpacked in Europe
75. Taken a road-trip
76. Rock climbing
77. Nose piercing
78. Midnight walk on the beach
79. Sky diving
80. Visit Ireland
81. Saw what you wanted and did all it took to seize it.
82. Fell in love then fell harder and faster from heartbreak.
83. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had lunch/ dinner with them
84. Visit and/or tour Japan.
85. Benchpress your own weight.
86. Stolen from your parents
87. Alphabatized your records
89. Pretended to be a superhero
90. Sang karaoke
91. Made someone cry for no good reason
92. Lounged around in bed all day.
93. Posed nude in front of a room full of strangers.
94. Dressed sexy for no reason.
95. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
96. Kissed in the rain
97. Played in the mud
98. Played in the rain
99. Gone to a drive-in theater
100. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
101. Visited the Great Wall of China
102. Fell in love with a job that has nothing to do with the degree you're pursuing
103. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog.
104. Dropped Windows in favor of something better.
105. Started a business.
106. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken.
107. Toured ancient sites around the Mediterranean
108. Taken karate.
109. Swordfought for the honor of a woman.
110. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight.
111. Gotten married
112. Been in a movie (One I made myself, but it's a movie nonetheless)
113. LARPed
114. Loved someone you shouldn't have
115. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy.
116. Gotten divorced
117. Had sex at the office
118. Surprised yourself with a talent you didn't know you had
119. Been to Macchu Picchu
120. Gone without food for 5 days
121. Never left the continental United States.
122. Made cookies from scratch.
123. Won first prize in a costume contest.
124. Ridden a gondola in Venice.
125. Gotten a tattoo
126. Got another tattoo the next day because you didn't feel balanced
127. Find that the texture of some materials can turn you on
128. Rafted the Snake River
129. Blazed it up at Burning Man
130. Gotten flowers for no reason.
131. Masturbated in a public place.
132. Gotten so drunk you don't remember anything.
133. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug. (I wasn't addicted to my pot days don't count. :-P)
134. Traveled the world.
135. Performed onstage with a famous symphony orchestra
136. Been to Las Vegas
137. Met Madonna
138. Recorded music (By myself of course)
139. Eaten Shark
140. Had a one night stand
141. Gone to Thailand
142. Courage to speak my mind (Most of the time)
143. Saw Robert Smith and Siouxsie live
144. Bought a house
145. Earned my degree
146. Broke my neck
147. Been in a combat zone
148. Buried my father
149. Earned a living through my creativity
150. Visit the remaining continents on my list
151. Had my pubic hair waxed off
152. Been on a cruise ship
153. Speak more than one language fluently
154. Worn see-through clothes in public
155. Bounced a check
156. Performed in Rocky Horror
157. Moved over 1000 miles by yourself
158. Been to art school
159. Read - and understood - your credit report
160. Raised children.
161. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy (Jenga!)
162. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
163. Created and named your own constellation of stars
164. Bucked stigma or trends to follow your heart
165. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
166. Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
167. Called or written your Congressman
168. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
169. ...more than once?
170. Run the Golden Gate Bridge
171. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you know someone is looking
171. Had an abortion (or your female partner did)
172. Had plastic surgery
173. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived.
174. Wrote articles for a large publication
175. Lost over 100 pounds
176. Held someone while they were having a flashback
177. Flown an airplane
178. Petted a stingray
179. Broken someone's heart. (<-- this I'm not 100% certain of)
180. Helped an animal give birth
181. Been fired or laid off from a job you loved.
182. Won money on a T.V. game show.
183. Broken a bone.
184. Killed a human being.
185. Had a threesome (or moresome.)
186. Ridden a motorcycle.
187. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph.
188. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced.
189. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol.
190. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild.
191. Ridden a horse.
192. Had major surgery.
193. Had sex on a moving train.
194. Had a snake as a pet.
195. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon.
196. Slept through an entire flight (takeoff, flight, and landing)
197. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of two consecutive days. (Sick -.-)
198. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
199. Visited all 7 continents.
200. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days.
201. Eaten kangaroo meat.
202. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground.
203. Been a sperm or egg donor.
204. Eaten sushi.
205. Been part of a group that requires secrecy of its members (occult circle, fraternity, Masonic lodge, etc).
206. Maintained 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year (seperately)
207. Gotten a tattoo to dedicate yourself to your deity of choice
208. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
209. Gotten someone fired for their actions
210. Gone back to school
211. Parasailed
212. Changed your name
213. Petted a cockroach
214. Eaten fried green tomatoes.
215. Read the Iliad.
216. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read, just to see what all the fuss was about.
217. Dined in a restaurant and stole silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them...
218. ...and got 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you.
219. Taught yourself an art from scratch.
220. Labia piercing.
221. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
222. Had a conversation with a Nobel Prize winner
223. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
224. Skipped all your school reunions (So far. :-P)
225. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
226. Moved more than four times in one year
227. Been elected to public office
228. Written your own computer language
229. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
230. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
231. Performed on stage for paying customers
232. Put to sleep your terminally ill pet
233. Got interviewed on radio or television
234. Published a story
235. Organized an event for charity

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 03:28:08 GMT

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 23:28:15 GMT

If you and I were alone in my room right now, what would we be doing?

(Now post this in your LJ, and see what people wanna do with you.)

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 06:32:35 GMT

My Utmost apologies for the second post (not really.).

This song has really got me thinking upon myself and upon life.

All my life I've wanted to prove myself, to show others that I am not what they think I am. I guess you could say that I let other people's opinions tread my path. I've taken what they have said personally, even though I just laugh and shrug it off when they are around; even if it is in jest. I don't like me for who I am, and I never have. I never liked the things I did, I was never proud of my accomplishments. People around me claim that I have talent in areas that I feel I don't. My poems, stories, songs, all crap; it can never be good enough for myself anymore. I guess after years of being told something it tends to stick with you. "This isn't good enough." "I'm sorry but this won't do." "I'd like for you to rewrite it." And all the while I pushed for it to be better, then eventually the teachers liked what I presented and I despised it. Websites are another example, more often than not before I put a website online I have gone through about 5 unfinished layouts for it on my harddrive that I didn't like. I guess that's how life goes though.

I also thought that leaving this town would be great for me, I still feel that way. This town is a decaying sess pool, there is nothing here for me. I stick out like [as quoted by myself earlier today at work] a queen in a hick bar. But why should a town have so much power over a person? Why can't I be happy here instead of somewhere else? Why can't life work itself out?

Blargh, this is me being pissy and lonely, mostly lonely... more likely than not completely because of me being lonely. *Smiles at certain thoughts* God, Crushes Suck.

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 06:20:46 GMT

Is the answer to life found in companionship? It is seldom that you find a person that is far happier alone than in a relationship which leads me to curiousity. Love [or something similar] can lead a person into true happiness, and can pull them into a pit of depression with the flick of the wrist. Why do we experience love? Are we the only species of animalia that feel it? What exactly are crushes? Why do we crush on people?

These musings are obviously inspired by recent events. I had gone to a party, expecting to only know the person who invited me, strangely enough I knew everyone who was there. One person in particular I had sorta been friends with in the past; while I went to Bert Bowes. We made a movie together for Video Production class. Anyways, I had known before hand that there were very few heterosexual people in that group of friends (I fit right in. ;)) but finding this out about one person in particular sparked a little bit of interest. Anyhow we were watching Anime and I was just sitting there, and people were changing seats often as we were getting up to get drinks and whatnot but others who were stuck on the floor would thief a seat as it opened. And I felt strangely more comfortable with this one person. And, even though it wasn't meant to mean anything [I think] when he put his arm around my shoulder I felt so comfortable and wanted to stay there. The musings of those around were interesting as well. "Aww you two look like such a cute couple." Anyways, after the party everyone but myself and one other person went home. She and I stayed up the entire night talking, and she asked me if I had any crushes. At the time I didn't think I had, so I said no but I told her that I thought that one person was cute. The next day however I had time to think, and thinking about that person made me feel warm and smile, it's pathetic how I let my emotions get the best of me. So to make a long story short, I now have this huge crush on this guy but I am afraid to ask him out or anything like that, so yeah... I suck. ;.;

On a sidenote, "Those Who Hunt Elves" AWESOME Anime! I loved it and need to get my hands on the DVDs <3

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 17:47:12 GMT

Based on the lj interests lists of those who share my more unusual interests, the interests suggestion meme thinks I might be interested in
1. art score: 12
2. movies score: 10
3. x-files score: 8
4. web design score: 8
5. photography score: 8
6. books score: 7
7. phreaking score: 6
8. drawing score: 6
9. hacking score: 6
10. stars score: 6
11. x-men score: 5
12. friends score: 5
13. anime score: 5
14. dancing score: 5
15. candles score: 5
16. graphic design score: 4
17. erotica score: 4
18. magic score: 4
19. philosophy score: 4
20. swords score: 4

coded by ixwin
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Fri, 09 Jul 2004 17:43:49 GMT

Just letting you all know I'm still alive. *nods*

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 21:14:10 GMT

1) Take your LJ username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc...). If your name contains numbers, you'll need to convert them to letters first before you can convert to numbers.
2) Add all of the numbers together to create a kind of super number.
3) Make a note of the first digit of this number, then add the digits of the number together.
4) Find the post of this number in your LJ. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again. Keep doing so until the number is smaller than your pathetic number of posts.
5) Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.
6) Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and select a picture from the first page.
7) Post the results for us all to see.

Obscurewolf = 15+2+19+3+21+18+5+23+15+12+6 = 139

Edit: Had to move image to my server.

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 02:55:28 GMT

http://blogs.salon.com/0001772/2004/06/14.html <-- That is awesome in a strange sort of way.

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 01:08:12 GMT

She saved a country, and for that she burned. It's funny to think that Human Nature has hardly changed through the ages. Take a hero and turn them into a heretic. For all of you out there; I'm ready for the fire.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 21:56:29 GMT

Come take the Comprehensive DDR Personality Test!

Created by ptocheia

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 05:15:17 GMT

Have you ever had a day when you woke up, kept to yourself and then the moment you actually be socialable with people it seems like you're just being a bother? I hate days like that. :'(

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 04:12:07 GMT

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 17:25:36 GMT

Top Commenters on obscurewolf's LiveJournal

1	obscurewolf	118
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8	rockrodent	14
9	atheil	13
10	elvenriver	13
11	phetalla	13
12	aesio	11
13	tiageorge	11
14	watchmeperish	11
15	ivyberry	10
16	jennythespud	10
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19	verbal_bonsai	9
20	alyith	7
21	darceia	7
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Total Commenters: 43
Total Comments: 430
Report generated 15/06/2004 10:24:24 AM by scrapdog's LJ Comment Stats Wizard 1.1

Work time now. ;)

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 21:46:48 GMT

How to make a Obscurewolf

Ingredients:

1 part success

5 parts brilliance

5 parts

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

I always new I was incomplete. 1 part success, 5 parts brilliance, and 5 parts. I wonder what parts I am missing? A heart? A soul? Compassion? Perhaps a dash of sympathy? And I think I might be missing Tact.

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 19:10:51 GMT

How does one ever know if they will amount to anything in life? You can go through day by day working a pitiful job serving hundreds of people but they don't even notice who you are. When is it time for the people behind the scenes to get their recognition? When is it time for those who died for us to truly be remembered?

Sure, we have rememberance day, and for those who were close to the ones that died the memory goes on. But in truth, how many of today's youth really care about rememberance day? I know until lately I didn't. I used to go out of my way to skip the school ceremonies because I didn't want to have to sit and wait for the 45 minutes or the hour it went on. I even skipped the Rememberance Day parade when I was in Cadets because I didn't feel like marching about the town in November because it was cold... And for that I am an asshole. I easily shrugged off paying respect to the fallen heroes of my country; without a second thought.

How is it that a person who died for us can go on, their memory fading as the generations pass, yet one who caused much pain and suffering is forced upon the youth so that they learn about him [Hitler]? Wouldn't it make far more sense to at least mention the names of all the fallen? To perhaps grant more than one day for them? Afterall, how is it justifiable to give a single person a whole day of memory [Queen Victoria] and then to cram hundreds, possibly thousands [shows how much I used to care, doesn't it?] of people to remember into a single day?

Играем в колбасу! У кого длиннее?

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 18:48:25 GMT

{Участников:29}-{nightway}-{w23}-{cherita}-{goldy_kin}-{besyonya}-{alexej}-{ivand}-{ta_tochka}-{gosha}-{candelabra}-{nikon_nlg}-{dziro}-{ven_ture}-{xnrrn}-{allegroconmolto}-{soulscode}-{glassapples}-{traveller}-{shaenie}-{nasturtium}-{bunnybaggins}-{juvu}-{blueathena}-{wyldkyss}-{squidflakes}-{mrkamikaze}-{themirrorlies} - {[Unknown LJ tag]} - {obscurewolf}

Чтобы присоединиться, введите свой ник и нажмите кнопку - колбаса сама запостится^* в ваш ЖЖ.
* - вы должны быть залогинены и у вас должны быть разрешены java-скрипты.
created by nightway

By the way, I have no clue what that says.... I just entered my name and pressed the button and it updated my journal for me. o.0

Edit:translation:

"Let's play sausage! Whose is the longest one?
...
To join, enter your nickname and press the button. The sausage will post itself automatically. You have to be logged in and have Javascript enabled
username:____ [Grow, sausage!]"

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 18:14:53 GMT

Moo.

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 07:17:53 GMT

obscurewolf's LJ stalker is obscurewolf!

obscurewolf is stalking you because you made a nasty comment on their LJ. They are also getting with your significant other!

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

How pathetic am I to have to stalk myself for my own attention?

On a more serious note... my co-workers and I wrote songs... about Tim Horton's.... for a make-believe Tim Horton's musical... It was my idea. That place is truly getting to my head; I'm scared. The Vice President of Tim Horton's was in my store today for an inspection. He was wearing a baker's uniform which confused the hell out of me.

Also, my life has grown pathetic I think, I've been working and afterwards I have been going to bed early and I have grown a strange affinity for this Disney TV show called "Radio Free Roscoe" And! The third Harry Potter was pretty good.... goodnight. <3

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